Emma- Two Months

We had our monthly photo shoot today. It was cool to see the difference in her engagement from last month to this month. She was so much more alert and happy than last month. It could be the new formula we have her on because it seems as though she is allergic to dairy. She's been such a happy baby since starting the formula. What I've learned in this past week is that even though you have an idea of how you want to parent, you can't get bent out of shape if things don't go the way you want. Sometimes you have to make sacrifices in order for your child to be happier and healthier. I was sure that I would never give her the dreaded formula. I feel that there is so much pressure on moms to take care of their children in a certain way and so it's really hard when the "right" way of doing things doesn't work quite right for your child. I have learned that I need to let go of doing things the way I think I'm supposed to, and instead to pay attention to what works best for Emma.

Anyways, here is her two month photo shoot. I love that I can just hear the "coo" she is making when I look at this picture. Enjoy, happy halloween!

Emma Speaks!

That's right folks, we can now hold conversations with Emma. Neither one of us knows what the other is saying, but the sentiment is there. It's the cutest thing ever, I think she sounds like a cat. Enjoy this video of Brandon having a conversation with Emma. At the end you get the real cat-sound effect, it's pretty darn cute. 

Tomorrow, Emma will be two months old and it blows my mind how fast these two months have gone. I know that I will continue to talk about how fast time has gone until the day I die, so I need to continue to remind myself to enjoy every single moment. Stay tuned for tomorrow's two-month photo shoot, it's Halloween themed :)

Moving

Last weekend, Brandon & I left Bristol Club after three happy years there. It was bitter-sweet because I really liked that apartment community, but with Emma we needed more space. Here's a picture of Emma in her first home!

Emma Smiles!

Well, I never thought I would see this day. The day my baby smiles at me :) I know it's only been five weeks (today exactly) but in the back of my mind I secretly feared that my baby would be the only baby in the history of babies that doesn't smile. That she would be this super-serious baby of sorts. I know that's a little dramatic, and most babies don't smile until about this time anyway, but there was still that fear. And this wasn't a "gassy" smile, or a smile that I think may be a smile but can't really tell. This was a smile directly related to something I was doing to her. A responsive smile. Here's the video:

There's never been a time in my life when I've wanted things to speed up and slow down all at the same time. On the one hand I can't wait for more of Emma's personality to shine through, I can't wait for more laughter, for her to start being able to tell me what she needs instead of me having to decipher her cries. But on the other hand I want to snuggle with her on my chest forever. I want the early hours of the morning feedings to never end (crazy I know, but there's just something special about it). I know that this is what I signed up for, but I guess I had no idea what it would really be like. I want Emma to love me as much as I love her, but I know that's not possible. I know that when she grows up she might care more about her friends than her mom, and maybe one day I'll be happy about that. Happy that she has friends that she considers family, happy that she is independent. I need to not dwell on those thoughts though. Right now this is my time, and her daddy's time, and I need to make the most of it and avoid getting caught up in the fear of being unable to control who she will become. All I can do is love her unconditionally and watch as she becomes the amazing person I know she is destined to be.